Джэйн Эйр/Jane Eyre (Шарлотта Бронте). Страница 69 из 445

Понятно

Понятно

Для того чтобы воспользоваться закладками, необходимо

Войти или зарегистрироваться

Отмена

Для того чтобы воспользоваться озвучкой предложений, необходимо

Войти или зарегистрироваться

Отмена

Озвучка предложений доступна при наличии PRO-доступа

Купить PRO-доступ

Отмена

Предыдущая страница

I

traced

the

white

road

winding

round

the

base

of

one

mountain

,

and

vanishing

in

a

gorge

between

two

;

how

I

longed

to

follow

it

farther

!

I

recalled

the

time

when

I

had

travelled

that

very

road

in

a

coach

;

I

remembered

descending

that

hill

at

twilight

;

an

age

seemed

to

have

elapsed

since

the

day

which

brought

me

first

to

Lowood

,

and

I

had

never

quitted

it

since

.

My

vacations

had

all

been

spent

at

school

:

Mrs.

Reed

had

never

sent

for

me

to

Gateshead

;

neither

she

nor

any

of

her

family

had

ever

been

to

visit

me

.

I

had

had

no

communication

by

letter

or

message

with

the

outer

world

:

school-rules

,

school-duties

,

school-habits

and

notions

,

and

voices

,

and

faces

,

and

phrases

,

and

costumes

,

and

preferences

,

and

antipathies

--

such

was

what

I

knew

of

existence

.

And

now

I

felt

that

it

was

not

enough

;

I

tired

of

the

routine

of

eight

years

in

one

afternoon

.

I

desired

liberty

;

for

liberty

I

gasped

;

for

liberty

I

uttered

a

prayer

;

it

seemed

scattered

on

the

wind

then

faintly

blowing

.

I

abandoned

it

and

framed

a

humbler

supplication

;

for

change

,

stimulus

:

that

petition

,

too

,

seemed

swept

off

into

vague

space

:

"

Then

,

"

I

cried

,

half

desperate

,

"

grant

me

at

least

a

new

servitude

!

"

Here

a

bell

,

ringing

the

hour

of

supper

,

called

me

downstairs

.

I

was

not

free

to

resume

the

interrupted

chain

of

my

reflections

till

bedtime

:

even

then

a

teacher

who

occupied

the

same

room

with

me

kept

me

from

the

subject

to

which

I

longed

to

recur

,

by

a

prolonged

effusion

of

small

talk

.

How

I

wished

sleep

would

silence

her

.

It

seemed

as

if

,

could

I

but

go

back

to

the

idea

which

had

last

entered

my

mind

as

I

stood

at

the

window

,

some

inventive

suggestion

would

rise

for

my

relief

.

Отключить рекламу

Miss

Gryce

snored

at

last

;

she

was

a

heavy

Welshwoman

,

and

till

now

her

habitual

nasal

strains

had

never

been

regarded

by

me

in

any

other

light

than

as

a

nuisance

;

to-night

I

hailed

the

first

deep

notes

with

satisfaction

;

I

was

debarrassed

of

interruption

;

my

half-effaced

thought

instantly

revived

.

"

A

new

servitude

!

There

is

something

in

that

,

"

I

soliloquised

(

mentally

,

be

it

understood

;

I

did

not

talk

aloud

)

,

"

I

know

there

is

,

because

it

does

not

sound

too

sweet

;

it

is

not

like

such

words

as

Liberty

,

Excitement

,

Enjoyment

:

delightful

sounds

truly

;

but

no

more

than

sounds

for

me

;

and

so

hollow

and

fleeting

that

it

is

mere

waste

of

time

to

listen

to

them

.

But

Servitude

!

That

must

be

matter

of

fact

.

Any

one

may

serve

:

I

have

served

here

eight

years

;

now

all

I

want

is

to

serve

elsewhere

.

Can

I

not

get

so

much

of

my

own

will

?

Is

not

the

thing

feasible

?

Yes

--

yes

--

the

end

is

not

so

difficult

;

if

I

had

only

a

brain

active

enough

to

ferret

out

the

means

of

attaining

it

.

"

I

sat

up

in

bed

by

way

of

arousing

this

said

brain

:

it

was

a

chilly

night

;

I

covered

my

shoulders

with

a

shawl

,

and

then

I

proceeded

to

think

again

with

all

my

might

.

"

What

do

I

want

?

A

new

place

,

in

a

new

house

,

amongst

new

faces

,

under

new

circumstances

:

I

want

this

because

it

is

of

no

use

wanting

anything

better

.

How

do

people

do

to

get

a

new

place

?

They

apply

to

friends

,

I

suppose

:

I

have

no

friends

.

There

are

many

others

who

have

no

friends

,

who

must

look

about

for

themselves

and

be

their

own

helpers

;

and

what

is

their

resource

?

"

Отключить рекламу

I

could

not

tell

:

nothing

answered

me

;

I

then

ordered

my

brain

to

find

a

response

,

and

quickly

.

It

worked

and

worked

faster

:

I

felt

the

pulses

throb

in

my

head

and

temples

;

but

for

nearly

an

hour

it

worked

in

chaos

;

and

no

result

came

of

its

efforts

.

Feverish

with

vain

labour

,

I

got

up

and

took

a

turn

in

the

room

;

undrew

the

curtain

,

noted

a

star

or

two

,

shivered

with

cold

,

and

again

crept

to

bed

.

A

kind

fairy

,

in

my

absence

,

had

surely

dropped

the

required

suggestion

on

my

pillow

;

for

as

I

lay

down

,

it

came

quietly

and

naturally

to

my

mind

.

--

"

Those

who

want

situations

advertise

;

you

must

advertise

in

the

--

shire

Herald

.

"

"

How

?

I

know

nothing

about

advertising

.

"

Предыдущая страница

Предыдущая

Следующая

Следующая страница

Следующая страница